Christmas Night... Thankfulness...

Christmas morning was filled with excitement and happy tears. We were blessed five times over from the local small groups from our church.

We had a wonderful Christmas. It was filled with lots of laughing, smiling and happy tears. It is so good to see my kids filled with happiness again.

We went to a late night church service last night and it really struck a cord in each of us. The girls had talked about several times today. Our faith is helping keep our focus on the blessings we do have and keep focused on God's plan for our family.

I strongly believe God brought Loral and her Live Out Loud team into our life with a purpose to help our family.

I am so ready to get my Cash Machine Rocking! I want to put this year 2008 behind me and move on and start an awesome 2009! I am going to make 2009 my most successful year!

More Unexpected Christmas Blessings....

I am so filled with gratidude right now. I went to bed early tonight because I have been so sick. I got what Jayde had and it hit hard on my body. While laying in bed I hear about 20 loud knocks on our door. I got up kinda scared and told the kids to stay in bed and go to the front door and slowly open the door...

As the door opened I see my porch covered in bags of presents for my family. I walk out front only to find no one. My kids come running out screaming in such excitement... It was like Santa delivered early for our family... We bring in the bags and pull out all the presents. The presents were all neatly labled.

Along with the bags of presents was a beautiful note for our family. We were adopted from a small group from our church. A group whom knew all we had gone thru with Jayde and all we have been thru with losing our jobs and our home...

What a gift from god. It ended up being a late night with the kids. They organized the presents several times over under the tree. It was a beautiful night. What a blessing. I am so thankful. Our apartment is filled with Christmas excitement! The days our now counting down to Christmas!

Unexpected Christmas Blessings...

I was prepared for a extremely bleak Christmas for my children. We came home one night and had a Christmas tree on our door step. It was so special...

My kids were lit up with excitement. I wasn't sure we were going to be able to get one this year with our financial situation. We brought the tree in and decorated it. It was amazing...

There was a note on the tree saying "Merry Christmas, Holley Family"...

I feel blessed.

Trying to Overcoming Obstacles....

This past week Jayde my middle daughter has been very sick with a severe case of bronchitis. We have been to the doctor three times this past week. She is breathing treatments along with two different types of steroids. My other three kids have coughs but nothing major.
Jayde missed the complete last week of school before Christmas Vacation. She even missed her and Logan's Holiday Performance for school. Logan and Jayde are both in the same class in kindergarten.

Jayde being sick and needing so much time and attention and love it has been making it hard to get anything done. I am feeling so confined and stuck. I am overwhelmed with all that I know I need to be doing and all that I am not doing with my Cash Machine. I am losing momentum by the day. I need to find my fire again and move forward. I need to find away around the obstacles that come up in my life. I have a phone call into my Live Out Loud coach. I need direction and guidance thru this time and get me back on my feet.

Patience, Patience, Patience....

This past week I have focused on getting my family settled into the apartment. Trying to comfort my children and make them feel safe. Trying to make life normal again for them. The weather has added to the gloomy feeling in the apartment.

I have been busy unpacking and still cant find so much of what I need. We moved in such a hurry. I moved a large majority of our things by myself while Greg was either at work or watching the kids. With the lack of sleep I cant remember where I placed things.

My feet our still hurting but hopefully in another week or two with some time off of them they will heal. Three more weeks I will get my cast off of the one foot.

Patience. Patience. Patience. I am realizing I am having to be patience with everything in my life so it seems right now. My kids without question. A few hours cooped in the apartment and they all start to go stir crazy! Their emotions are running high as well with all that has gone on in the past few months.

Patience with my living space as far as being organized and settled in and feeling comfortable. Patience with my Cash Machine and all that I need to do and get done on it. I am realizing I am human and can only do so much in a day no matter how hard I push.

Patience, Patience, Patience is what my life is about right now...

Finally Completely Moved Out... Emotionally Broken...

I have been up all night working in the rain finishing the last of the move. This has been one of the hardest experiences I have ever endured. The emotional toll it has taken has been very hard.

I am relieved to be out of the house and relieved to be able to build from here. The way I look at it I can only go up from here. I think I am at rock bottom. I have sank... Now is the time to put myself back together and pull myself up and move forward.

I will be working on settling in this week. Getting things unpacked enough to function. I also just got Brandan thru finals his trimester is over now. With Greg working so many hours and me trying to move by myself with four kids and their school, I have not been able to put any time into my cash machine.

I am losing momentum and need to get with my Live Out Loud coach after this week and get myself refocused and back on track with my cash machine.

Our First Night in the Apartment...

Tonight is our first night in the apartment. We are still not complete out of the house yet. The rain has slowed it down and has made it a bit more challenging. We did rent a uhual and it has helped.

Apartment is small and cozy. Brandan said tonight it feels like we are staying at a hotel not a home. It just doesn't feel like home. I told him it will just take time and once we get settled in and things organized and set up it will help make it more "homey". Kids are all pretty sad. Girls are confused and don't understand why we are moving.

I am looking forward to being able to put my focus and energy into moving forward and building my cash machine and putting this behind me and making a new path. This is exhausting both mentally and physically. I am wiped out.

Time is Ticking... Need to Work Faster and Harder....

I am so tired, my body hurts in every way possible. My feet are killing me. I have worked all weekend long packing and moving. We were supposed to be done and out of the house today. We needed to have all things gone and the house completely cleaned. We sill have about a quarter of our stuff left in the house. It is really hard moving from 2000 square feet to 1100 square feet, from double garage to single garage.

It is such a timely process going thru everything decided what to keep what to give away. It has been a long time since we last moved. Seven years and three more kids later. Everything takes longer because of my feet. I have a walking boot on one and a cast on the other. They are both swollen and very sore.

This weekend has been emotionally hard on everyone. For the kids the reality is setting in. It is hard, it hurts. My heart is sad and wish I could make things different. Our neighbors whom we are very close with are sad, which makes it harder.

We fortunately have been blessed with one more week to have everything out and the house cleaned. The realtor has been very understanding with the circumstances and the obstacles I am facing with my feet.

Right now I just cant wait to be Free, from this house. I just want it done. I have not been able to put any work into my cash machine. I am keeping the mind set of creating cash. Selling what I can.

A big storm is coming, big for Southern California. :) We are on Storm Watch 2008.... It is funny watching how dramatic the news reports on it. This is going to make the rest of moving, difficult.

We are going to rent a UHUAL to help move things faster. It is taking to long loading up my expedition and making mini trips back and forth. We don't have the time. I cant wait to be done and moved in and settled to be able to put my energy and focus back into my cash machine. I know I have a lot to do and people are counting on me. Work harder, work faster and work smarter!