Dr. Phil Show... Meeting Loral Langemeier... Finding Help and Hope in a Dark Time

Today the second Dr. Phil show aired on tv. The whole thing is still hard to believe. Alot of mixed emotions came watching the show. America is extremely judgemental. I went to the message boards after the first taping aired on 9/15/08. It was brutal. So many mean, judgemental comments. We did have a few neighbors put in a nice message about out family.



So much of our story was not aired. Who knows maybe I would have been judgemental if I watched the story that aired. It was a show about money. It was not a show about the hardships we have endured or the daughter who has had 9 surgeries and spent the first two years of her life in the hospital fighting for life. That was the reason for the refinancing, medical debt, not being able to work due to being in the hospital. I also have had a few physically tough years. I have had 6 surgeries in two years.



Looking at today we are blessed. We have our health. Jayde is doing incredible. We have been blessed with the Dr. Phil show and meeting Loral Langemeier. Loral is a best selling author and the founder of the Live Out Loud company. I immediately liked Loral upon meeting her. She is just "real". Very easy to like, very warm and extremely sharp!



Reality is hard for us right now. We are losing every part of the life we were living. Our marriage is completely different. It is a constant struggle. The stress of our finances and the stress of losing everything and the stress of providing and feeding our kids and the stress of making money is killing our relationship. Not having the tiime to spend together and enjoy each other is another killer on our marriage. I really miss my husband. Sounds crazy because I see him everyday but I dont see the man I fell in love with, the man who used to make me smile and laugh. I see a very cold, grumpy man who is very unhappy most of the time.



Our home got foreclosed on the day after the first taping. It was sold back to the bank 8/13/08. It is very scary the possiblity of our family being homeless. The financial everyday struggles is exhausting. I am constantly thinking and worrying about, keeping utilities on, having gas in my car, food to feed my family. It takes so much work when you have little to no money. It is a juggling act. Constant stress. I lay awake many nights unable to sleep.



Come along with this journey with me and let me share the help my famliy receives and the progress we are making....

Logan's Birthday!

Today is Logan's Birthday. It is hard to believe she is 6 years old today. My mom met us at Toys R Us this morning. Logan was able to pick out a few things. I took them home and wrapped them.

Tonight all our neighbors joined in a pot luck for Logan's birthday celebration. I made a cake. We got a surprise delivery from the Dr. Phil show today with flowers and some balloons and a super cute pink ty doggie that she can play online! I feel so grateful.

Afterwards Logan got to open her presents. Our neighbors are such great friends we are so lucky. Logan got some really neat presents. She had a wonderful birthday. My heart is soaring with gratitude and happiness.

Happy Birthday Baby Girl!

Still in Disbelief....

I still cant believe in a few days we will be in the studio meeting Dr. Phil. We are airing all our dirty laundry in front of America.

We dont really know what to expect. They dont give you alot of information up front. We have been working with Loral already giving her and her team all our financial information.

She is the real deal. She is very kind, very sharp. Listening to her talk, I feel so thankful for this opportunity.

Last weekend at church I was overwhelmed with gratitude and was filled up with tears. I am so thankful for the opportunity we are getting. I realize there are many. many families in similar or worst situations.

I am feeling very grateful, very excited and very scared... Overwhelmed with emotion.

Long Emotional Day.... Cant Believe We Are Doing This in Front of America....

Yesterday was a very long day of filming for the show. They got here around 9:00 am and didnt leave until almost 9:00 at night.

Kids were excited to have the crew here. Heck I think the whole neighborhood was. They filmed out in front of our home. All the neighbors stood around and watched.

It was very emotional all day. We finally got to meet the Dr. Phil financial expert, Loral Langemeier.

I immediately loved her. She was very warm and personal. She was "real" not fake. We both really liked her. I felt hopeful just talking with her.

I really feel like there is hope for us and feel like we might be "okay" whatever that means.

It is still a daily struggle to just put food on the table and keep the lights on.

They have scheduled August 12th (Greg's Birthday) for the taping of the show in the studio audience and for us to meet Dr. Phil.

Tommorrow... Big Day... Not Sure What to Expect....

Tommorrow the crew will arrive around 9:00 am. Not sure what to expect. Very nervous.

I have my clothes planned. They told us solid colors not pastel and no labels or logos. We are susposed to have 3 to 4 outfits ready.

My neighbor loaned me a couple shirts. Our friend Shahna highlighted and trimmed our hair a couple days ago for us. She has been so wonderful and so giving. We have bartered services with her to get our hair done.

Dont think I will sleep much tonight. We havent really told anyone about this. A few neighbors know because they have seen the cameras in our home. We both just told our families a few days ago.

They are kinda shocked and in disbelief. Wish us luck tommorrow.....

Logan's 6th Birthday.... Making My Heart Hurt.....

Logan's 6th birthday is in five days. I dont have a single thing for her. I am not sure what I am going to do. I am trying to sell some things right now to get a little money together to be able to get her a few thing.

I think my mom might be able to help with a couple presents. I am thinking of throwing a little party (really a pot luck with neighbors) for a birthday celebration for her.

I feel so sick to my stomache right now. She is so sweet. She is so excited for her birthday it is killing my heart everytime I listen to her talk about her birthday with so much excitement....

I feel so sad inside.

Dr. Phil Show.......... Here We Come!

We have been sending in the home video tapes and we just got word we are picked for the show! This is so very exciting! We havent been told who the financial expert is yet but just that she is amazing. They are planning on coming to our home for a full day of taping on August 6th.

The financial expert will meet us then.

The Dr. Phil Show.... WOW ..... A simple email in the middle of the night a couple of weeks ago has led to this!

What a blessing, This is so Crazy. Very surreal.