Today the second Dr. Phil show aired on tv. The whole thing is still hard to believe. Alot of mixed emotions came watching the show. America is extremely judgemental. I went to the message boards after the first taping aired on 9/15/08. It was brutal. So many mean, judgemental comments. We did have a few neighbors put in a nice message about out family.
So much of our story was not aired. Who knows maybe I would have been judgemental if I watched the story that aired. It was a show about money. It was not a show about the hardships we have endured or the daughter who has had 9 surgeries and spent the first two years of her life in the hospital fighting for life. That was the reason for the refinancing, medical debt, not being able to work due to being in the hospital. I also have had a few physically tough years. I have had 6 surgeries in two years.
Looking at today we are blessed. We have our health. Jayde is doing incredible. We have been blessed with the Dr. Phil show and meeting Loral Langemeier. Loral is a best selling author and the founder of the Live Out Loud company. I immediately liked Loral upon meeting her. She is just "real". Very easy to like, very warm and extremely sharp!
Reality is hard for us right now. We are losing every part of the life we were living. Our marriage is completely different. It is a constant struggle. The stress of our finances and the stress of losing everything and the stress of providing and feeding our kids and the stress of making money is killing our relationship. Not having the tiime to spend together and enjoy each other is another killer on our marriage. I really miss my husband. Sounds crazy because I see him everyday but I dont see the man I fell in love with, the man who used to make me smile and laugh. I see a very cold, grumpy man who is very unhappy most of the time.
Our home got foreclosed on the day after the first taping. It was sold back to the bank 8/13/08. It is very scary the possiblity of our family being homeless. The financial everyday struggles is exhausting. I am constantly thinking and worrying about, keeping utilities on, having gas in my car, food to feed my family. It takes so much work when you have little to no money. It is a juggling act. Constant stress. I lay awake many nights unable to sleep.
Come along with this journey with me and let me share the help my famliy receives and the progress we are making....
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