A couple hours ago Greg and I had a major blow out. Around 5 am I got up, couldnt sleep. Greg got up and was getting ready to go to Starbucks to work.
It had been a very tense week between the two of us. Not much talking all week long. Last night I mentioned getting another job again, he ignored me. There was a posting on Craigslist for Christmas Light Installer nights and weekends. $100-$150 cash paid daily. Perfect, right?
I emailed Greg the posting and told him he should call the guy. Saturday morning we were talking about his work and how it is going etc. I mentioned again the job and everything blew up!
We fought it out for a couple hours while the kids slept. It got ugly. I hate fighting, I hate confrontation, I hate conflict. It makes me feel horrible inside.
Nothing was resolved from it either. Bottom line is he will not get another job, it is a dead issue. A month and a half ago he said on National Tv (the Dr Phil Show) he was going to and told Loral's team our coaches he would. It is not going to happen. Deal with it, Brandy I think that is what I was told.
Very frustrating. Not that I thought it was going to be easy. It wouldnt because he is working really long hard hours it is just something that needed to be done, simple.
He strongly feels like it would affect his job at the mortgage bank.
I dont know what to do... I dont think either of us feels very hopeful right now with our marriage. We are not on the same page. I look at my kids and feel so much saddness and so much guilt for what they are going thru and for the mess we have created.
I hate fighting.... I hate it... I feel so sad and so awful inside.... Money Troubles Suck...
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