Family Life Update...

I havent posted about the "Family" life lately. With Greg and I things are impoving. Still hard at times and still alot of stress. We still struggle with time managment. I still find myself staying up most of the night working with very little sleep. Its hard but it wont be forever.

Kids are still struggling with the move. Brandan is really having a hard time. I am pretty worried about him. He is struggling in school. He has a GPA of 3.87 and now for the first time ever has C's and D's.

His teacher called me the other day worried about him. He is not doing his homework and not studying for his tests. He seems down. It has really been a hard road this past year and it has finally catched up with him.

I read Brandan's Health Journal he wrote about 10 stresses in his life for school. It was heart breaking. I feel like I should have protected him better from the financial crisis our family has suffered. At 13 years old I dont know how I could have. He came home to find one of the many notices of foreclosure on our door. That was very frightening to him.

He is worried about alot of things and very few of them are what a normal 13 year should be worried about. Biggest one is money and having a place to live. Divorce is a concern as well. Worried about what his friends think about his family what they think of us losing our home and moving into a apartment.

We live in a very small apartment. The six of us live in 1100 square feet apartment. We are on top of each other. It has been quite the adjustment of life. The kids can no longer go out front and ride their bikes. While I cooked dinner Brandan used to work on his homework and go play football outside. That is gone.

I had a long talk with Brandan. He is struggling to focus with all the distraction in the house with the girls after school. He finds it hard to do his homework and study. I have a meeting with his teachers next week. That should help with coming up with a plan to help Brandan get back on track.

The girls are struggling as well. My youngest daughter is scared to be without me and freaks out when I leave the house. She asks multiple times a day to go back to our old house. It breaks my heart. It hurts to see my kids hurting. That is also my motivation to work my butt off and provide a better life for them.

It will get better and that is all I can do is reassure them. I was telling Brandan yesterday that I know it doesn't seem like it but things are getting better slowing even if he doesn't see it yet. A year ago we had no hope before meeting Loral. We were just barely surviving with no opportunity for things to get better.

Today I have this incredible opportunity with all I have learned from Loral and the Live Out Loud Team. Today I am making new cash and have more control over over future than we had six months ago. Today we have hope. Today I have a Cash Machine that is a budding business.

All you can do is love them and reassure them and try to let them just be kids and not worry about the adult concerns. Be Patient, Brandan things are getting better.... I promise.